Untitled (Blue)

Cyanotype on paper

2021-2023

Untitled (Blue) uses woven photograms to investigate neurosis. The tranquility of blue and the repetitive nature of weaving ask the viewer to spend some time with these objects. My goal is to create a harmonious and serene environment for you to either reflect on your own experience or to simply just be. This work is very much influenced by the Pandemic. Untitled (Blue) was born out of the seemingly random and disparate neurosis that I began to experience as we started to go back out into the world in 2021. If my partner took longer than expected at the hardware store or I missed a call from my mom my thoughts would spiral and I would obsess over the possibility that someone was in a fatal car accident or had been rushed to the hospital due to a sudden heart attack. These obsessive thought loops took over my brain and overshadowed my real worry about Covid-19. At the time, I couldn’t see the connection between the two. They felt like disparate anxieties. It took time for me to discover the connection between my neurotic obsession with sudden fatal accidents and my anxiety about Covid-19. In this body of work I make two photograms that are exactly the same size using the exact same shapes but the image composition is slightly different. These images reference the anxieties I was having about sudden accidents and about the spread and the contraction of Covid-19. The act of weaving them together is a representation of their connection to one another. I chose to use abstract shapes for their inherent lack of meaning and seemingly randomness. My experience with neurosis is that it feels as though the individual obsessions and anxieties are seemingly random and illogical, but when I take the time to really look at them I can see the larger picture of what’s going on.